Positivities

I have negativeness fixated on my brain and I can feel it eating away at my positiveness like sugar on a tooth - leave it setting too long and a cavity begins to form.  So I'm going to list some positivities.  :-)

1. I am positive about my eternal security.  I know where I'm going when I die.  I hope you do too.  Want to know how?  Just ask me.
2. I am positive that this summer has been the hottest summer in a long time and that fall will eventually get here.
3. I am positive that I need to focus more on the positive in my life!
4. My niece and nephews are the greatest positivities in my life!  
5. I am positive that tomorrow is Friday!
6. I am positive that once I get some sleep maybe my negativeness will go away...heehee.

negative creeps back in...

Ok.  So I was going good for a week.  Then I hit a brick wall again.  There is something at the root of my negativeness and I need to spend some time finding out what that is.  It's rotten spiritual fruit, but it's not as easy to get to as a rotten apple in the fruit bowl.  I have some rotten fruit, I know its there, but I'm not entirely sure what is making it rotten.  I have an idea, but I'm afraid to find out the truth.  Rotten spiritual fruit, although it may be hard to find sometimes, slowly takes over all the other spiritual fruit.  Then all that spews out of the mouth is moldy, rotten fruit salad.   I don't know about you, but I like my fruit salad fresh (and I'm sure everyone around me is getting tired of rotten fruit salad as well).  Pray with me that I would toss out all of the rotten fruit and fill my fruit bowl with fresh spiritual fruit.  Also pray that I would let God fill the place in my life that only He can fill, that I would stop searching out other ways to fill the hole.

When God answers with a "no"

This is something that's been on my mind a lot lately.  There are some people who are going to go through life wanting something, praying for something, and they are never going to get what they want.  Myself included.  At least that's my take on it.  I'm not talking about that expensive car or a house on the beach.  I'm talking about more spiritual/relationship type stuff here.  I just can't see where some of the things that I am praying for are going to happen, in relation to myself that is.  And I know that all seems negative, but here comes the positive.  The positive thing is for me to quit being negative about getting what I want and rebelling when I feel that God is saying no.  What I need to do is be positive: keep praying, keep reading my Bible, and keep seeking God.  It's when I stop doing these things that the negativity starts to creep in and I stop praying, reading, seeking.  By seeking God and continuing to pray, I believe that some of the things I'm praying for will turn more to match his will and what I thought I wanted won't really be what I needed and what I start to want will be what He wants.  There are still some things that I may want that I will never have but if I keep praying and seeking God, my faith will be stronger and my relationship with him better.  After all, it's not about what the rest of my life will be like.  It should really be about how what I'm doing and what I'm praying for is going to effect eternity.