Where is God?

O my God, my soul is cast down within me;

Therefore I will remember you from the land

of the Jordan,

and from the heights of Hermon, from the Hill Mizar.

Psalm 42:6

 

I have been asking this question a lot lately.  Where is God?  Why do my prayers go unanswered?  Will my dreams never come true?  On a recent sleepless and troubled night, after reading a very distressing email from a friend (distressing in that it pinpointed an area of my life that I didn't want to be reminded of), I found my self is the above area of the book of Psalms.  Starting in chapter 41 through around chapter 50, it was like the psalmist had been reading my mind.  I had been fighting what I knew I needed to do.  I didn't want to pray if God was going to say no anyway.  I didn't want to read my Bible because I knew what I would be reading.  I just wanted to quit everything and try to do things my own way.  That night, I didn't feel like the struggle was worth it, and I really needed to get some sleep, so I cracked open the Bible (more like the Bible app on my phone) and I heard God speak.  In the 42nd chapter of Psalms, there is crying and tears and wonder at where God is.  In chapter 44, the psalmist recalls the deeds God did for the prior Christians.  This is where God spoke to me.  Remember.  I need to remember the deeds of God in my own life.  And tonight as I type this, I need to remember the deeds of God in my family.  So I will remember a few here tonight, to remind myself that God is still here, and He will answer my prayers in His own time. 

 

REMINDERS:

• The salvation of my grandfather: without this I most likely would not be in church today.
• OBU: the biggest dream of my childhood was to attend this university, God was with me throughout.
• Paris: I had the privilege of sharing the Eternal Light in the City of Lights! Merci a Dieu!
• Hello!  I have the best niece and nephews an aunt could ask for!
• The breakdown on the turnpike on my way back from college, a ride from someone who just happened to live 5 min from my hometown.
• salvation for friends I have long prayed for

 

The list would be too long to keep going.  I have to hang onto these reminders as there are some areas of my life right now where I need the reminders to keep going.  Everything in me just wants to quit and give up, but it's going to take prayer and God to get me through and keep me going.  I can't let the darkness win.  I have got to keep heading into the light. 

 

I will lie down in peace and sleep, for You, Oh Lord, make me dwell in safety. Psalm 4:8