Wednesday, September 28, 2011

though they may not seem positive at first...

I'm not feeling the most positive tonight because my ears are clogged up and they're about to drive me crazy.  I think a visit to the doctor is in order....but here are some positivities from the last couple of weeks:

  • Our Wednesday night program at church started back the first part of this month and each time we've exceeded our attendance from last year. 
  • I'm seeing blessings in things that I haven't seen before and growing closer to people in the process.
  • I'm discovering new purposes in my life and I am finally working through some issues that need to be resolved.
  • I am finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel and I am certain that it's not a train headed in my direction.
So things are looking very up.  I'm still working through some issues, but God is working in me and I'm hoping these will no longer be issues soon. 

Sunday, September 18, 2011

There shall be showers of blessings in disguise

I'm really beginning to realize that there are many blessings in my life that have been in disguise.  People I have "known" for years that I really didn't know at all.  Once I let myself get to know these people, they are a lot different than I thought they would be.  And it's a GREAT blessing having these people in my life.  There are parts of my life that I've considered a burden that I've started to see as a blessing and their former importance is disappearing and being replaced by things that are truly important.  I think some exciting changes are ahead...and I'm looking forward to the journey with the Lord by my side.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

The key to freedom - Truth

You will know the truth and the truth will set you free - John 8:32

I am one of those people who has a hard time letting go of things.  Not physical things, but mental things.  One of the mental things I have a hard time letting go of is my desire for marriage and the fact that this desire remains unfulfilled, and the fact that it looks like it might remain forever unfulfilled.  In order to make sense of this, I try to make truth out of the lies that are fed to me by the roaring lion.  These lies are not roared at me, but whispered to me and I am the one that roars them out to myself.  If I start telling myself these lies in the morning, my entire day is ruined.  I find it hard to accomplish anything else because I am so focused on the lies.  I'm tired of it and want to be free from it.  And the way to get free from it is to tell myself the truth.  The truth is that God is in control. I may not understand why somethings happen, but He has a purpose for keeping me single for the present moment, and maybe for the rest of my life.  Maybe it's to help someone who is also wanting something and doesn't understand why is hasn't came to pass in their life.  I don't know and I may not know until I reach heaven.  I've got to keep this truth in my head, instead of letting it be filled with lies by the one who is out to keep me from reaching the potential that God has for me.  It's time for me to step out of the prison of lies, and into the freedom that only the truth can bring.

Side note:  I told the kids at church that exchanging the belt of truth for a belt of lies or not dealing with the truth at all is like having to have a belt to keep your pants on.  When I start off my day without putting the belt of truth on, it's like not being fully dressed and prepared for the day.  It's a prime article of clothing needed to complete my morning toilette.  And it's high time I started every day with the truth, so instead of dwelling on the lies, I can rest in the truth and be who God made me to be.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Postivie Partnerships part 2

I'm finding that in some areas, I'm not even having to ask for help.  The partnerships, or more like teams, are forming themselves.  I think I really needed to get rid of my preconceived notions and focus on the purpose of why the partnership exists, and not what I'm expecting others to do.  The only person I need to be worried about is myself, and not others.  So God is working all of this for the positive.  :-)  Short blog for the day but I think appropriate for the anniversary of 9/11/01.  We all have to work together, for positiveness and for the benefit of others.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Positive partnerships

I am so bad about wanting to do things on my own, not wanting to ask for help because I'm afraid that no one will be able to or want to help.  However, I've learned that doing things on my own only leads to burnout, and then I don't want to do anything at all.  I also believe that not asking for help may be one of the reasons that I feel I don't belong sometimes.  I took a big step recently, in actually asking someone to help me.   It worked out very well, a lot better than I thought it would.  God blessed the partnership with 100% positive results, and I believe that is just the beginning.  :-) 

Friday, September 2, 2011

More positivities from the Psalms

Is there a better color for positivities than purple? (I know my friend Maggie would agree LOL).  Tonight I read in Psalm 3 & 4.  I really don't know what made me start reading in Psalms on the first but it seemed like a good place to start.  In reading tonight's verses, I don't really feel that people are rising up against me but I feel sometimes that I am going to have to struggle with some things for my whole life.  I've prayed for God to take them away, but He has not.  I know that He probably has a plan for these things, and will use them in ways that I never expected.  I know that He is in it, and that when I get through it I will be stronger and He will receive greater glory for it.  And that is more important than me getting what I want and what I think I need.  Who better to decide what I need than the one who created me?  :-)  Psalm 4 ends with one of my favorite Bible verses:

I will both lie down in peace, and sleep;
         For You alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.

Good night!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Naneristic Positivity for the day

Sept. 1 - I pick up my Bible (for the first time in many days) and open up to Psalm 1.  I struggle a lot with God's timing and when/if things are supposed to happen.  When reading verse three, a thought came to me. 

"A tree...that brings forth it's fruit in it's season"
 
Different trees produce their fruit in different seasons and it takes longer on some trees than on others.  Plus, there are some trees that don't bear fruit, because they are not by the river.  My fruit has not been very evident lately because I have not been spending enough time at the river, and when I don't spend enough time at the river, it affects everything I do.  If I plant myself by the river, my leaves will not wither when drought comes, and I will still produce fruit. I have been fleeing the River when drought comes.  In actuality, I should have been doing the opposite.  I should run to the River when drought comes, so I can still bear fruit and remain positive.  The negativity in my life becomes so much more evident when I fail to spend time at the River.  Pray with me that I will spend more time at the River, so that I will be more positive in my life, and in that way also be more positive to the others who are in my life.